bad romance

jenny : why are you so good to me?
forrest : your my girl!
jenny : i will always be your girl.

clueless.

some people just dont get it. and i guess

you never will.

yup.
bye.

guilty pleasure.

i think, shopping is my porn.

wohooooooooooooooooooooooo!

like only a woman can.

whatever you give a women, she will make it even greater.


give her sperm, she will make a baby.
give her a house, she will give you a home.
give her groceries, she will make you a meal.
give her a smile, she will give you her heart.

so if you give her any crap, be ready to receive
TONS OF SHIT.


:)

say im a bird.

nurul nadhirah bte abdul aziz.

i am not courtney love
i am not yoko ono
i am not vanessa hudgens
i am not maria ozawa
i am not your mother
i am not your sister
i am not your ex girlfriend (s)
i am not your superwomen
i am not perfect
i am just me.



- you'll see, that your the only one for me

friday 13th

im suppose to be doing my report now.
but i guess thats not happening...



-electrify me,somebody

baby baby baby.

you have been the greatest.

7 months ago, im fine without you.

now, i dont think i can live without you.

i love you, trust me i do.

-tak ada niat,untuk berpisah dengan mu

float my boat.

i told you once. im gonna say it again. it aint easy. handling me. yes, im complicated. so what? figure me out. and NO, i dont want better. i choosed you. remember? i was once broken, someone picked me up. but i gave you a chance to fix that final piece of me. yeah, you did it. i repeat. im not stuck with my past. i put it behind me. all those memories, is not on replay in my mind. im sorry, you feel unappreciated. im trying, dont u get it? im changing,cant you see it? you should know by now i have this problem of showing people how much they mean to me. ask anyone. ask zira. even better. ask my mom. i dont know how to express the way i feel. so sometimes i'll show it with my body language which might turn out diffrently, or, i will say words, that will also come out differently. i dont think i have trusting issues. i trust you enough. dont be offended. when i ask you questions. or question your answers. fine, at times i may over re-act. sometimes got myself thinking, "what am i so mad about?" but you see. thats not the problem. because at the end of the day. im still gonna be this way. im still gonna choose to be angry. however, i want so much for you to understand me sometimes. u dont have to understand all of me. just get it. i mean just know what would probaly make me damn annoyed that cause me to be treating u like crap and what would make me happy and gedik and manja(as you say i am). yeah this is totally normal in a relantionship kan. she get mad. he gets upset. he wants her to pujuk. shes not gonna step down. In 1 week, 1 month, 1 year from now im gonna probaly laugh at this post cause i know you and i will get through this phase of wanting each other's attention and wanting to feel appreciated and wanting to want what you have without waiting for it. one more thing, i like to simpan alot inside of me. till the day comes, i will hit rock bottom. simpaning feelings inside of me is sometimes good, cos like i said. if i were to blurb out what the hell im feeling, you and anyone else will get it all wrong. but of course locking things up to myself will eat me inside out so my moral of the story is i will still hit rock bottom. isnt it? i wont deny the fact that im actually a princess. yeah. thats the way i am. is all about me. me me me me me. im mad. im pissed. im hurt. im annoyed. i want to be happy. make me happy. must make me happy. must give her what she wants. what does she wants? dont ask me. cos i dont know what i want. so how now? how? just give her what she wants. dont ask her what she wants. just give it to her! me. ego? no. im just cold. ice cold. it goes two ways. A - it will melt eventually. B- it gets colder as ever. but baby, please know that im here to make u happy too. is not always about me. please know, that as bitchy as i can get, your the only guy who i open up too. please know, that as tough as i am, i can cry too. please know, that as cold as i am, i have a soft spot in my heart just for you. please know, that as annoying as i am, is all because im in love with you.

take note. this is just half of what i feel. your gonna have to read me,literally.
word by word. dont miss any sentences, pages or even letters.

this sucks.i wanna do some shopping.

-will i see you at the other end?

calling all angels.

i want this. badly.

-why would i not love you anymore?

try harder.

sometimes i wish i was invisible.

-love me when i least deserve it cos thats when i need it most

hmm.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

im sorry for being such a princess lately. but please understand that because i dont get to see you everyday and that im alone at home so i feel like i need all the attention in the world. and also because, of course, im a princess! :) ahahhaa. hayoo babyyyyyyy why you sleeping now :(

i know for the past few days we've been pissing each other off and i really feel like squashing you so bad sometimes but then please know that i appreciate you with everything you have done for me and promise to show it better from this day onwards okay?ayoyo.

i miss us driving to putrajaya to just sit and talk

i miss going to macd / ayam penyek after college

i miss talking on the phone until subuh. eventhough you tak smayang subuh. ahahhaa

i miss going lunch with you

i miss going down and see your face after work finish

i miss shopping with you!

i miss sitting beside you in class

i miss you, us singing in the car

i miss holding your hand

i misssssssss you msging me in the middle of the day saying i love you

i miss you kissing my forehead

i miss the way you look at me.

i miss the ayam penyek, seriously

i miss hugging youu eventhough you so tall

i miss your smell

i miss other things but i cant list down here *hikhik*

-thank you for not letting go.when i said, let me go.

one day in your life.

hi baby. let me just say..
that if he were to ever want me.

yes i would be happy
yes i would be smiling
yes i would be jumping
yes i would be proud
yes i would be lucky
BUT. only for a minute.
being with you baby,
would make me

happy, smiling, jumping, proud
and lucky for a lifetime :)

okay bye. mwah

split second.

im not at peace. i swear. but i dont know why? why.


I'm strong
But I break
I'm stubborn
And I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah I'm hard
And life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be
If you'll trust me, love me, let me
Maybe, maybe

.

i think, IV BEEN HERE BEFORE.

abang.

happy birthday abang.

eventhough your far away, i always remember your presence in this house.
eventhough we were never close, you always make me feel safe.
eventhough we always fought, i know that you will protect me in everyway you can.
eventhough i never say it, i cry everytime thinking what life would be without you.

please take care of yourself and i hope u know we are missing you everyday..
i promise to take care of mom and dad and i will try to not spend their money too much. hehehehe. :P
im doing good here, maybe not such a good girl that you want me to be but dont worry im not getting into any jail or rehab or involve in some illegal crime. mummy and daddy is also doing good but sometimes is hard without you around cos the attentions all on me so whatever i do they will start picking on me :( i want you to know that i have someone taking care of me now and when you come back hopefully you can see it for yourself that im happy and that he loves me alot and would never do anything to hurt me. abang, i miss you sending me to school and fetching me and eventhough we both never talk in the car but i miss you singing like a crazy guy. knowing that raya is close i miss the fact that you will be here and you will be so nice to me on the first day. ( cos is the first day so u dont want to be all nasty to me ) i miss salam(ing) your hand everytime i want to get off the car or go somewhere. i miss you knocking on my door just to say "mummy ask you to go down". i miss back in school you will always tell me to butang my baju kurung EVERY SINGLE TIME you see me. i miss just knowing that your here. right next door. and i can hear the toilet flushing two three oclock in the morning.

i love you. your my hero abang.

your one and only sister,
adik.

you know why.

i want... that

zara cardigan

long champ bang still.

baju kurung :)

shoe from charles & keith. yeah i need those

dresss. you choose

d top from united colours of bennenton

jeans. i need extra!

and on top of that im complaining abt my wadrobe bursting out anytime soon.

so yeah. 

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-whatever makes you happy.

crazy, or beautiful?

dear god,

so how now?



-when i wake up in the morning, will you still be there?

5 minutes.

i need a freaking new laptop.



part of me laughs
part of me cries
part of me wants to question why?

hi.

in our darkest hour

in my deepest despair

will you still care?

will you be there?

in my trails.

and my tripulations

through our doubts

and frustrations

in my violence

in my turbulence

through my fear

and my confessions

in my anguish

and my pain

through my joy and my sorrow

in the promise of another tomorrow

i'll never let you part

for you're always,in my heart.