dear god,
how could he not see, ways i loved him, the way i do, in every way i can, in my own way.
how could he not see, that even at times, i put him before you and committed a sin.
how could he not see, how i will never lie, cheat, betray him in all the ways that he think i would?
how could he not see, how i cared, how i pampered, how i worry, how i learn to understand him?
how could he not see, how i tried, how i forgave, and how i did my best to forget?
how could he not see, that it hurts everytime we fight and that i cry myself to sleep?
how could he not see, i miss him in every way, and that i cant imagine life without him around?
how could he not see, i dont want certain things not because i dont love him but because im afraid to loose him?
how could he not see, that i want to share with him every story and how much it hurt when hes never there?
how could he not see, every single time he hold me, i feel safe and content?
how could he not see, all those times when i dont reply i love you, i silently whisper it back?
how could he not see, that i watch him fall asleep when hes next to me?
how could he not see, that i'm sorry all the time but never find the right words to say?
how could he not see, that even when i have a heart of a stone, but this heart belongs to him and only him?
if this is the end. and is really over.
i'll accept it . i'll go through it. i'll battle with my own self.
i'll let it go.
